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Eric passed away this morning. He was essentially family, like our dads have been best friends for 30+ years, and me and his sister (my age) were inseparable. So he’s almost like another brother to me. He was diagnosed with leukemia almost two years ago and went into remission this time last year. Things were taking a turn for the worse around July, but there was still a lot of hope. Then very suddenly, he had to go back into the hospital about two weeks ago. Not even 48 hours ago he was put on a ventilator. And he passed at 8 this morning. Like… It wasn’t sudden, but at the same time it was very sudden. He was only six years older than me, and he leaves behind a wife, twin six year old kids, his parents, and his two siblings. And I’m just. Idk. With all the triggering news coverage stress of this week and the anniversary of a friend’s passing tomorrow, and now this, my brain is just frozen. I keep alternating between being fine and then dissociating and then sobbing. This just doesn’t feel real. I don’t understand anything about this stupid gd world

Idk where I’m going with this so to my friends – I love you, I hope I tell you enough. If you wanna send me like funny pictures or dumb memes or videos etc pls do. I may not respond bc I have negative spoons but it’d be appreciated. I just want everything to stop